I came to understand the devastating and tragic effects of pancreatic cancer when my first wife, Eugenie, lost her brave battle with the disease in 2003. She was a wonderful pianist, and was finishing up her Doctorate of Music Arts degree at USC. She was my best friend and my musical partner. We were married only 10 months. She was 34 years old, had undergone 5 major surgeries and had been fighting pancreatic cancer for 5 years. I was angry at the disease and angry that there wasn’t more that could be done in the way of treatment. I remember deciding that, one day, I wanted to be able to do something to help in the fight against cancer.
Jumping ahead seven years, I had made a decision to start running again after a 12-year hiatus due to chronic injuries. I had read about barefoot running, and how many people have overcome injuries and were running pain-free. Somehow, this concept was fascinating to me, even as a self-described germaphobe. About six months into my experimental barefoot running phase (yes, running without shoes of any kind), I came across the Hirshberg Foundation’s LA Cancer Challenge 5k on the internet. I knew right away that I had to get involved with the Foundation, and running the 5k seemed like a great idea. It was the first time I came across any organization that was dedicated solely to pancreatic cancer research. At the 2010 LA Cancer Challenge, I ran my first ever 5k, and without any shoes. It was the longest distance I had ever run in my life. It was an unexpectedly emotional experience for me as I thought about why I was running the 5k and raising money for the Hirshberg Foundation. It felt really good to finally be able to do something to help in the fight against cancer.
I was so impressed by the event and how well organized it was. I could tell that there were so many others that could understand what I had been through, which was both sad and comforting. It was sad because I was surrounded by people who, unfortunately, had experience with pancreatic cancer. However, it was comforting to see that so many people had come out to support each other, to raise awareness about this disease, and to help raise money for much-needed research. Little did I know that running that 5k back in 2010 would lead me to do something I vowed I would never do: run a marathon.
I began training for the 2012 LA Marathon in October of 2011. I had been running barefoot for about a year and a half, and still hadn’t run more than 4 miles. After our first training run, I realized first that I had a lot of work to do before I was ready to run a marathon, but I also realized I was getting involved with a really great group of people. We had such great support and encouragement from everyone at Hirshberg and from our running coaches Robert, Euri and Jack. We all had our ups and downs with training, but we supported each other and all finished our first marathon that year. I decided by 7 pm after that first marathon, that I needed to run it again the next year. So, on my 34th birthday this year, I ran my second marathon.
Running the marathon was a tremendous experience for me, both physically and mentally. My emotions were a roller-coaster of a ride, but every time I felt tired or sore, I reminded myself why I was doing it, and I managed to push through the discomfort. The outpouring of support from both volunteers and the public who lined the streets really helped keep my spirits up. Coming up to the Hirshberg Foundation’s Purple Cheer Station at Mile 21 with dozens of cheering supporters all in their purple clothes was an extraordinary experience that brought tears to my eyes. That moment was a big reminder of my loss back in 2003, but also a beacon of hope for the future of those that are fighting cancer.
I’m not exactly sure what it is about running a marathon that I like, but I know running the marathon for pancreatic cancer gives the experience real purpose for me. I know that while I am sore and tired, it is a small sacrifice if I can help make a difference for someone in the future who will live longer after being diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. I am so very proud to have been a member of the Hirshberg Training Team and run the LA Marathon the last two years in memory of Eugenie, and in support of pancreatic cancer research.